I have had an awful year, the worst year of my life so far. There are so many things I could write and complain about on here but I’m not going to, I’m just going to leave Essex for a while and figure myself out again. I have no focus on what makes me happy anymore and I have no respect for myself or anyone around me. I need to learn from my mistakes, start a fresh and turn over a new leaf. I need to concentrate on me and do what I think is best for myself from now on. I’ve booked a one way flight to Zante and not sure when I’ll be back but I guess it will be when I’m ready and when I’ve figured out how I’m going to deal with the things that have made me this sad. I’m going to sunbathe, loose weight, work hard, get drunk, take long walks along the beach, cry until I am cried out (I’m almost there anyway) laugh until I pee my panties, learn to be independent, make some new and exciting people and hopefully I’ll meet an amazing guy that wants me for me but I’m not counting on it. I can’t dwell on the things that make me unhappy anymore, I need to get over you because we both know that you will never want me, I need to move on from the twitter situation, I need to get my life back on track and concentrate on me.
Awww thanks honey :) xx
